It’s been almost 3 years since my last post.
The picture above captures the reality of the spiritual and personal battle that wreaked havoc on my heart and soul. The enemy tried to silence my voice. He whispered and spewed out lies that made me back into a corner and retreat into hiding. I’m sure that many can relate to the everyday warfare we are challenged with as believers. But, I take comfort and courage in the words of Paul, as he motivates Timothy to fight the good fight of faith:
“But you, Timothy, man of God: Run for your life from all this. Pursue a righteous life—a life of wonder, faith, love, steadiness, courtesy. Run hard and fast in the faith. Seize the eternal life, the life you were called to, the life you so fervently embraced in the presence of so many witnesses.”- 1 Timothy 6:12 (MSG)
Little did I realize that 2016 was going to test the boundaries of my allegiance. In a desperate attempt to find solace, I immersed myself in self-destructive behaviors that lead to further damage. As time passed, I found myself in a desolate place. It left me homeless, jobless and questioning God as to my very existence. I was so deep in oppression, that I couldn’t see a way out of my current situation. This was my breaking point. As a result, I made the decision to surrender to God knowing that I couldn’t walk anymore without Him. I learned that it was OK to ask Him for the very things I needed and I didn’t have to carry the heavy load on my own (1 Peter 5:7).
I began to search the scriptures for guidance until I happened to come across the tale of Job. He was an upright man before God, and then suddenly, he lost it all. As I study his story, I sensed his pain. The words jumped out of the page and spilled over into my own cries. He pleaded his case to God without ever blaming his creator. How remarkable!
Why? It’s the question that you and I ask when facing a difficult trial. The answer is found in the word of God:
“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, [a] against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.” – Ephesians 6:12 (NKJV)
There is an enemy out there who hates you (John 10:10). He will stop at nothing to keep you from fulfilling the plans and purposes of God for your life. He will try to silence, separate, and distract you. He wants to keep you in a cease-fire hold. That’s how the adversary works against the children of God. The devil knows that once you align with the Commander-in-Chief, the God of angel’s armies, and gear up for battle, IT’S ON! He has to flee in the mighty name of Jesus! Always know that there is one who is mightier, who is our refuge and line of defense in times of trouble:
“God is our refuge and strength [mighty and impenetrable],
A very present and well-proved help in trouble.” – Psalm 46:1 (AMP)
My fellow comrades in arms, the battle continues and know that it is real. I now possess a strength and peace in God that not even the devil himself can take away from me. The Father equips us with not only spiritual fatigues (Ephesians 6:10), but with His word. It serves as a reminder that He has us in the palm of his hands (Isaiah 49:16). In short, the Lord is doing great things in my life as we speak (that calls for another story). A new hope and faith springs forth from the depths of my soul, and I smile. I am standing firm on the word of God, with my battle-armor in place.
Only this time, the devil is on the run.